I never said it wouldn't be an 'experience'

FebFast is going well, so far. This is the big test, though - a weekend without wine!

Part of me is a little sad; and the other part is ashamed.

I've had One Of Those Weeks, and I truly believe I've earned a nice glass of wine; but that's just faulty thinking, isn't it?

The lesson here is: 'Thou shalt not use alcohol as a reward system.'

Add that to yesterday's lesson; 'Thou shalt not use alcohol as a social crutch' and the general rule that 'alcohol is not a form of medication' - and what have you got?

The total revocation of any semblance of propriety from the past five years of my life.